Hope this is a scheduled MRI and not because you are having symptoms of a problem returning. My husband is a 2 time survivor and I remember how anxious he would be before follow up scans. I think it is the not knowing and of course the waiting. Please keep us updated. 🙏
Paul, I deeply appreciate your specific lens into the world and the way you give us access to your inner world. I hear you that machines in and of themselves are not bad; many times, they save our lives. I hear you about the enticement of using AI for creative work--just this morning I was thinking, "Wouldn't it be nice if I just plugged in some questions to an AI program and asked for help with this essay I'm working on?" I choose not to, for a lot of reasons. I realize AI would be saving me time. I realize in many ways it is "smarter" than I am. At the same time, I don't want to lose my ability to research, to critically think, to analyze, to distill, to consider nuance. Machines can't do that. A machine can't replicate my very human thoughts and feelings and needs--my writerly voice.
Finally, I will be thinking of you as you get your MRI. Please know I sincerely mean that.
Jesus Christ. Even this. Even cancer and death and the grief of not knowing how long we will keep them at bay is written with grace and beauty and a profound sense of gratitude. You amaze me.
I didn’t know I still worried along these lines, as it’s been nearly 23 years since I kicked cancer’s ass a second time. But it never leaves completely, the fear. Nor the gratitude. I hope you get good news, Paul. 💜
This may be cheesy but it, too, is human-generated: I hope your scan is as clear and beautiful as your writing. This brought tears to my eyes this morning, in the best possible way. Thank you. 🙏
These semi-annual plunges into scanxiety are 0/10 stars. Received the all-clear with my latest MRI/exam this week, and my fingers are crossed that you hear the same.
Hope this is a scheduled MRI and not because you are having symptoms of a problem returning. My husband is a 2 time survivor and I remember how anxious he would be before follow up scans. I think it is the not knowing and of course the waiting. Please keep us updated. 🙏
It's my 1 year scan <3
Paul, I deeply appreciate your specific lens into the world and the way you give us access to your inner world. I hear you that machines in and of themselves are not bad; many times, they save our lives. I hear you about the enticement of using AI for creative work--just this morning I was thinking, "Wouldn't it be nice if I just plugged in some questions to an AI program and asked for help with this essay I'm working on?" I choose not to, for a lot of reasons. I realize AI would be saving me time. I realize in many ways it is "smarter" than I am. At the same time, I don't want to lose my ability to research, to critically think, to analyze, to distill, to consider nuance. Machines can't do that. A machine can't replicate my very human thoughts and feelings and needs--my writerly voice.
Finally, I will be thinking of you as you get your MRI. Please know I sincerely mean that.
Sending my best hopes into the sunrise and rising bread, Paul, for this MRI. ❤️☮️
Sending virtual strength, positivity, good will and compassion your way. I said a little prayer for the best outcome.
Jesus Christ. Even this. Even cancer and death and the grief of not knowing how long we will keep them at bay is written with grace and beauty and a profound sense of gratitude. You amaze me.
I didn’t know I still worried along these lines, as it’s been nearly 23 years since I kicked cancer’s ass a second time. But it never leaves completely, the fear. Nor the gratitude. I hope you get good news, Paul. 💜
I hope all goes well, Paul.
Oh gosh, so sorry to read this! Paul, I am a praying girl, and will pray that the results are good.
I’ll be thinking of you all day and sending you and Jenn and your girls so much love. So much!
This may be cheesy but it, too, is human-generated: I hope your scan is as clear and beautiful as your writing. This brought tears to my eyes this morning, in the best possible way. Thank you. 🙏
Exactly. That’s a lovely statement. 💜
I hate that you have to go through this today and I love what you wrote.
These semi-annual plunges into scanxiety are 0/10 stars. Received the all-clear with my latest MRI/exam this week, and my fingers are crossed that you hear the same.
Don't forget to ask for earplugs. ❤️🩹
Thinking of you and sending lots of good energy
Sending lots of love to you today!
I couldn’t possibly send you more love than I always do but you make it easy — any extra I find is coming your way brother 🤟🏼
Not only do I not use AI, I don't even know how to use AI beyond a basic spell/grammar check. Good luck with the MRI. And the bread.